Do I forget. Part two

Last night we had a long conversation, it went well. We did not yell
and we both kept our composure.

I felt that I made some good points and thought that I was getting
threw. They also made a lot of good points about my lack of
participation in the relationship.

I realize that I have not always " been there " but I feel I am at a
point in my life where I am ready to make the changes needed so I can
be a better person. I can't do it alone so I am going to be getting
help to learn how to deal with my issues, I want to be a better
father, husband and man.

I was informed that although they do want to work on " us " they also
don't want to give up the indiscretions that are a big part of all the
things that our straining this relationship. The whole cake and eat it
thing.
Tonight while I am at work they will be out. How do I deal with this?
How do I come home knowing that they are out there?

Am I supposed to act like nothing happened and continue trying to make
things right in the hopes that things will work out?

Will I be able to live with the knowledge even if things do work out?

My heart is torn, my mind is spining out of control and my body feels
like I have been run over by a truck.

I hurt!

Guess the answer to all these question are already in my head, now I
have to give myself the answer. I don't know that I am able to.

Need to look deep inside and really see what it is I need and want to do.

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